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I love you mother, I always will
I failed to show you when you needed it at times
I gave you heartache and pain
I fought against ideas, wishing you'd walk away
In vain
You would fight against reason for me
You would commit treason for me
You made me who I am, when nobody else would
Sometimes, I failed to see the good
You aways remained
I loved you through all of this, through the black
You loved me through anxiety, and panic attacks
Though you never found a cause
Always searching, only looking for a way to give me life
You were no saint
Your methods were unorthodox when you didn't know
Sometimes, life felt like one big show
What was done to me, where I went
Unforgivable to some, but I know what it meant
But light was so faint
Your goal always remained true, always the same
To give me the tools I needed to push through and win my own game
To understand myself when you failed to discover
Eventually finding myself another, maybe a lover
You were there
Cheering me on, sometimes you faultered
Giving up for just a moment, emotions unaltered
Making us breakfast, include the cliches, good way to start the day
Some little inside jokes for you and me in a way
Showing you care

Not of mind, but of heart... this art
Never to see what you meant for me
Not by choice, still hear the screaming in my voice
Get up, Neo
You must be free, I know this cannot be
How could they do such damage to thee
The one we knew, the one we know we do
I am in love only with the moment that passes
The dream once held, never seen
Undeniable, this dream
What I wish to do, what I wish to see
Detached from my reality
All the sacred hearts within my mind
Unable to find the words to explain the pain caused by hiding
Visit the world perhaps to try
I know not why I fight myself
Leave no trace, a ghostly face
Time for tea, for me as I will be resting until
Until the land opens for us to see

Can't put a finger on it, thoughts that hold
Never want to let go of it, bought and sold
Still can't move beyond, like a fear
Our souls are being conned, keeps us here
Here is a place in the mind, something to find
Nothing more than traces left behind
We wish for wonderous things to meet our eyes
When the real moments bring confused reprise
Reaching for a quick fix to the numb the pain
Never knowing what could be for love to gain
Jaded by these seconds on the hours
Unphased by passerby, holding flowers
Love is not a word, not a confession to be heard
Life within the breeze, the trees, and birds
Wonder and awe, seeing more than we could ever understand
These beautiful things beyond the reach of trembling hands
Emotionally broke as we're blankly staring down
Freely spoken words tied and bound
Open your eyes, your hearts to the world
Witness the wind and leaves as they are swirled
Holding on to the moment, no time to let go
Something to grow, reliving it to show
These are the moments to know

Temporary things take up space, not to embrace
As permanence in life is what they replace
Would I not give a flower to my love
Knowing it will fade, wishing it would stay
I know these terrible beings and why they create such heartache
Demons of the night, dreading daylight not walking in the shadows
Crawling, hunched over as they feed
Caring only for the hearts they still don't understand
Truth in life, my only demand
Above all else, how we should define
These pauses in our path we choose to find
I have and still attempt to show, letting all know
To reveal ourselves to those who help us grow
And statements made so long ago, in words
Still heard, fantastic they may be, untrusted
I know within myself, from the mouth which they were thrust
Could I trust who I should, knowing this could be a fable
My life guided as purely as I am able
I strive to be what was not truly known to me
Hidden away, with so much I wished to hold, not to be
Such things experienced, none would share, made to be known
My strength falters as I dare, returning bitterness is shown
I may not seem to be seen as I am, barely a man
Not a man, a person, breathing with my heart beating
I will love even those meant not for meeting
For some choose to learn from what they feel
Change for better from such ordeals
Myself, I cannot place my hand within another
Not without finding my place beside, as a brother
For a stranger, a friend, or a lover
I find my confidence, this warmth where hearts recover
Life must be, not without overwhelming passion
As only within the memories we make is our life fashioned
This life, these dances
All considered only chances
When life cannot consist of thorns
These are not the reasons we were born
I understand this rose, this life I may have lost comes with a cost
But now it isn't up to me, not for me to see to the loss
My life shaped who I am, damned or blessed
For how the past defines, I will love no less
The future beheld, set before my eyes, for this, I try
I have and will for always be this love until I die
No matter your beliefs, perhaps you will learn
Then and only then shall I know that love was earned

At times, my rhymes do come to me
In the strangest of ways
A whisper in the wind, things I see
The Sun bids farewell as it leaves the days
It never feels wrong, only different
As I steal the Sun's song
Perhaps to simply record what's unheard
As it has repeated these words so long
I only wish to expand upon the beauty
For this world to see, setting eyes to the sky
Above the images upon a screen, surely
They must notice, they must care, they must try
I know these words are shared, I know
But within such truth is beauty of its own
So I will never let any of them go
To respond in kind, though less than what is known
I will begin to speak as sunlight does decree
This place, our land, made not by man's hand
The skies above, clouds and cool breeze
These things I love as the stars above, so I stand
Could we all just open our eyes and see what could be
Your dreams as real as any other, as the love of a mother
Living in peace, harmoniously
Embracing the hands of our sisters and brothers

Love found bound to the ground
I pass on all inclination to astound
Calling out the moment sounds
Describe yourself as perseverance
When doubt is running interference
Could this dream be more
Something called for
Unlike before, real and pure
Of this I'm sure
Without my soul to endure
Just one time, there are many
Don't refuse your own approval
Force your own hand until removal
Granted defiance through compliance
Underhanded, undemanding
Such a tone commanding
Always a way to stay standing
Ride, run, walk, all the ways
Each and every day, go or stay
This fight is for the kindest
The gentlest hearts will be
Setting free the love in me
We will always see, undeniably
Loved, hated, unfated to destiny
The future once debated
The one we've yet created

Defiantly describe to me this battlefield you face
Make haste with your description, not a word can go to waste
For all the unmade memories we've yet to have misplaced
You've died so many times, you've bled and made your case

Skies so blue reflected rays of sunlight in the clouds
Do things in ways that scream so silently that you are proud
Break through the faulted stars that glisten secretly so loud
Undying in their dedicated task to pierce this shroud

I've known you well before the moments placed before our eyes
This present gift of time defies the cries I hear that pry
Inside a twisted memory decaying as it ties
I'll someday reach a precipice that holds before it dies

When moments free of doubt have given forth a life so pure
And all the truth inside us tells us we can now be sure
Your smile is a reminder and your pain I do endure
So quickly does it torture me upon my journey's tour

Clearly, this reality is better than their dream
As we are all susceptible to faith in what we gleam
Where purity of heart can bleed through, bursting at the seems
The war that rages on with those we once called on for steam

This power that defies all odds, all gods, as it is love
The one and only movement we should surely hold above
Your peace, your pale reality can feel like a shove
Though just for now I do believe your hands should don a glove

By knowing there is something broken in this unknown time
A missing piece, and extra phrase that crowds a perfect rhyme
I know you can find comfort knowing there was just an extra dime
A step within the ladder that we very few must climb

It's days of broken chaos that remind us where we stand
These days of deep reflection when it's wrong to just hold hands
Where hugs and holds and love so bold have all been roughly banned
Call on your thoughts and memories that could be deemed a brand

So all the world around you can be bettered by your voice
Be proud, sing loud and tear the shroud, defiance is a choice
The pain they'll cause by holding back the laughter heard as noise
I beg you, let this fear of life be lost again, as we all should stand at poise

We are one to love, to hold so far above, pure of heart, ready to dance
We must wait for this moment to be seen, to take our chance
Until then, sing, sing loud for all to hear, without fear, that is my stance
For so many are just passers-by whom we spare a second glance

Never hide from the unknown, embrace it
Look into its eyes and choose to face it
Love can be a gift from those you choose
The enemy, in hatred, forced to lose
Confusion in the words you mean to lift
Without them, there is no honest, precious gift
A real meaning to who you are, let that be known
The smile, the laughter, tears and how you've grown
All the days that pass with heart in hand
Giving it to strangers, cross the land
Perhaps attempting safety from itself
The unknown places, thoughts upon a shelf
A hidden and divided crowd of crows
Only one, in truth, will ever know
They choose to fight a war with other's words
Never was it them, the trust endured
Do not become the one who takes an image
Decide's it's what he wants and starts the scrimmage
Disposable memories tossed to the wind
Always; more than everything begins
Memories to be created, moments awaited
God's gifts in the love you perceive as fated
A kinder heart, permanence, beautiful
Because there is nothing more terrible, more horrible
Than losing a memory you could have cherished
When the moment you've forgotten, since has perished
You cannot know, never decide until doubt has died
Become something of yourself, never hide

Hey internet and everyone else... I love you
Just felt like mentioning that, in case you haven't heard it today
It seems needed for the world, okay
Seems the right thing to say
Because you're all more grand than all design
Remember, there is always time
To say, "I love you"

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Have you seen a poem
A bird singing a sweeter song than this
When in love you sang these tunes I miss
For all time, I would have cried
Perhaps never to recall who I was
Who I wanted to see
Who I am
This is my place
An unending peaceful grace
Do you know who you are
I know, I am you, at times too much
Too many verses placing upon me such curses
An infinite possibility
Why we had been what was seen again
Already done, was this not more than one
I know I will hold you for all time
There will be order and reason to this rhyme
I do not need to find my name, as yours is upon my tongue
I have finally discovered this place, this face, with names I am graced
Are we the waiting, perhaps
Have we found ourselves, discovered a meaning
There is only one hope for one without salvation
Yours, a name once shrouded, clouded
Softly spoken, falsehood, accepted, understood
You were once my savior, now because of you, one greater