seeyat

A statement to make while awake, finally I say it
I will not impress them, not best them, won't okay it
I'm not looking for love, no lust or hearts, keep it from me
I will keep from the moments, burdens kept from being free
My one desire is freedom from the shit you pile upon my heart
The pieces of what you claim to be wanted but only tear me apart

I won't spend time with people who have fallen to weakness
Strength is in a pure body, the mind, veins free of bleekness
Yogurt life is kept from all, yes it's delicious, written long ago
Long since lost computers and harddrives let go
A period of silence for the ones who claim to hear
I'd rather wind up dead than fill my lungs with burning fear

My one wish, this wish I place upon the stone
Leave me be, all those who've seen me, left alone
The decade I have had, I want no more, none at all
What you claim is wasted, I want it gone, all to fall
I am trying to be civil with the point I hope to paint
If fifteen years should disappear, the future I'd await

If ever lost, the decade tossed, to winds of burning sand
I should still be the man I see, on memory's demand
What years have done to graces sung, my fingers and my feet
I can't recall the simplest task and now I taste defeat
There once was dancing, all enchanting, nothing better still
I'm better without your compassion, chains and lack of thrill

Is life an excerise in who can guess the best for one
While knowing only you, yourselves and others having fun
You must be clearly understood in knowing what is right
I know not what the meaning is in anything til night
Then I sit and wonder for a short and passing while
As dreams and memories then flood, it seems in single file

You've broken this once mended heart, still now I say good day
I don't want anything I knew, whether known then or today
Tomorrow is my only friend, my only memory
For it is only written by the fates who yet decree
My dreams are all I follow and it's hard enough to catch
When the moments all seem hollow, Mephistopheles does catch

Broken souls and shattered dreams, hidden memories
Fallen angels taking up swords, told to freeze
No more shall I be the one you expect
Standing tall but never standing erect
So sorry for what you believe could convince the masses
A lack of understanding, missing pieces far outclass this

You never told me what made you so bold
Whether needed for warmth or to keep from the cold
I had no idea that could ever be kept
From the ones with whom each night she slept
There's more to this than any know
You yourself, wouldn't likely let go

I won't try to make you believe, only tell you this
What you may deny can never be dismissed
A fear that kept these thoughts within
All this time, forced back to the sin
Where that beginning ends, this light emerges
Now, my cold and dead heart surges

Dogs are for drummers, which I am not
Scooters and Satan, maybe once thought
I wear lots of black, you'd never have guessed
When I listen close is when I do my best
I am always a healer at heart and in mind
You're not going to see it if never you find
courage and patience to start up a chat
Maybe some questions arisen with that
Love is my compass and passion, my guide
Any who tell you I'm tough have since lied
I'll battle with words as the movement of lead
Written on paper once they've left my head
I'll never be one to uncage such a beast
I've seen what it does to them once it's unleashed
I'm not going to hate them, for they are just dogs
I don't understand where they land just like pogs
I am no musician, nor am I to try
I'll heal with my heart with a twinkle in eye
Patch Adams, indeed is my spiritual honour
No longer concealed is this self not a goner
I'm back to be holding you while you are crying
When you have been hurt and you feel like dying
I'll lay with you still as you've emptied your tears
Asleep in my arms with your dreams over fears
Until you've awakened, I'll stare at those stars
Knowing you're heart hasn't healed by far
When beaten or broken, I'll still hold your hands
I'll never in life be a slave to demand
I'll love with my heart and cure with my soul
When toughness is called, let them fill the role
I'll pour out my heart with each line that I write
Hopeful that cander can just put this right
This is my passion, you are my plague
I've always been like this, though the years have been vague
My heart has been dormant for so many years
For most of the world they'd be driven to tears
I had long since accepted the way they had wanted
For me to become, yet it recently haunted
A glimmer of hope in the moonlight of night
Returned to the darkness, where I find my light
This is who I am, the smile so dark
If ever it's seen, I should hope it will spark
Another in you, some joy in your day
Though I'll always present in this shadowy way

Here's a thing I think about more often than I should,
Could bringing back the younger me do anybody good,
I see myself much better and I hear my smile speak,
There is a Grinch heart growing in my timidness so weak,
It's time to lift the veil set upon me long ago,
It's time to press on toward the future we could never know,
Life is something waiting to be taken by the hand,
Never to be known for I would never make demands,
Love is waiting for us all to break down solid walls,
Everything we want could be there as they quickly fall,
Hearts and minds unite to call upon the fearless night,
Darkness there so perfectly, you'll hardly need the light,
Shimmers glisten in the streets and cars go by so smooth,
Don't forget the beauty within every path you choose,
Lead yourself to freedom and to hearts that touch the sky,
This is something real to fight for, catching in your eye
This here is my final statement, do and do not try