seeyat

Nowhere fast or slow, I don't know
Basking in the glow
Neon towers of light were there once before
Now sitting alone, in my room behind the door
With nothing but the fashion of the walls in pale light
Dark blockading curtains turning every day to night
Darkness willing with the wind that blew between the trees
Now gone and long forgotten never heard with heavy breeze
I remember how we talked, while I was stuck in this tower
I won't be leaving, I've returned to dream with every hour
Not for the loss of sight in my hearts eyes, as they cry
Only for the weakness I have felt inside
I hear this trembling lunatic that stretches out her hand
Trust me, you can trust me, not them, I say you can
Your hearts are so much purer than the ones he seems to draw
As if these vast realities were written into law
It's known they know a few things yet they do bridle their word
Knowing I could never speak their threats forever heard
For all their born relationships and others would disturb
It's true concern is fruitful when it's taken into kind
But act on pure deception and you poison every mind
Prevent the peace of purity and many years that passed
Only watching over something puzzles need to last
A perfect form of armor that could easily defer
The final act of judgement and the fear that it has stirred

A bitter moment when we must hide from our God
A holy place, perhaps not secure, for fear and discrace
This disease a distaste, divine fear
Stinging clear as day, keep your memories today

I release you from where horrible people contain
Done so for me but caused me so much pain
I love you and will for each of my days
Trust is no longer, what they've done's not okay
I do not and cannot attend when you call
I'll be held back softly and always miss the ball
I'm moving on forward with nothing you know
Hopefully dreaming for laughter to show
I do not intend to let go of these things
For never I know which futures they bring
I don't ever know what these objects are for
I've let them all go and I'll paddle from shore
Once gone, then to realize what I have done
By then it's the demons, the day they have won
Alone in the dark, I'm thirsting for passion
Although it is now I shall have satisfaction
So many things pulling in all these directions
Ridiculous truths that must pay for collection
Not enough, never loved, undone above
We have woven a broken fate, bankrupted skies, no glove

Cancel all your active orders
Get outside and cross some borders
Make your way out of the darkness
Keep away from routes that mark this

Atomic failures, fear that bleeds
This bitten hand I hope that feeds
You'll need to know there is no reason
For warm or cold or dreary season

Stay inside or out if happy
No more lies to doubt entrapped me
All for you to see and hear
There is no reason to be here

I've prayed but I'll never stay.
I want to go on my way,
No matter what you see or say,
Your hold on me is not okay,

I want you to know if you haven't heard by now,
I don't really understand how,
Sarcasm, statements, the color red,
Please Jesus I wear it on my head,

Shouldn't it mean stop, can't you see colors,
Or are you just prying and breaking all the others,
I like to be solo, alone and with no one,
I prefer to avoid them they're bright as the sun,

I say alone, I mean alone, no one not even a moment,
You should listen once in awhile before you go hellbent,
I'm not a very average person in the least,
I wouldn't ask for anything and I just want to be released

The metaphors with me I hate who you are
I don't want your horrible dogs
I never want people who just see a car
Which is fine since I think they are hogs
In honest the wheels are a real straight fact
For I really don't want to drive four
I helmet and goggles though lacking in tact
Would make my heart fly ever more
I'd be free of the burden of impressing a guest
I'd have my own life to be lived
I could get where I'm needed, still be at my best
I'd be free of the gifts that you give
For you must listen close, I will ever be host
To my heart, self, and gift to forgive