The Origins of Always

[seeyat]

I love you mother, I always will
I failed to show you when you needed it at times
I gave you heartache and pain
I fought against ideas, wishing you'd walk away
In vain
You would fight against reason for me
You would commit treason for me
You made me who I am, when nobody else would
Sometimes, I failed to see the good
You aways remained
I loved you through all of this, through the black
You loved me through anxiety, and panic attacks
Though you never found a cause
Always searching, only looking for a way to give me life
You were no saint
Your methods were unorthodox when you didn't know
Sometimes, life felt like one big show
What was done to me, where I went
Unforgivable to some, but I know what it meant
But light was so faint
Your goal always remained true, always the same
To give me the tools I needed to push through and win my own game
To understand myself when you failed to discover
Eventually finding myself another, maybe a lover
You were there
Cheering me on, sometimes you faultered
Giving up for just a moment, emotions unaltered
Making us breakfast, include the cliches, good way to start the day
Some little inside jokes for you and me in a way
Showing you care