This Lonely Road

I've taken the steps to improve those around me
To weaken the grasp the collar holds
I've loosened the chains almost rusted in place
For the words were a warning so bold
It's done now for most but the message holds host
Is it knowledge or nonsense unsure
I choose to go on with guaranteed success
This statement commited so pure
No matter what's said as I hold up my head
I press on through the bulk of the storm
There is still a dim light that gets brighter at night
And the snow holds a glow oh so warm

Roxanne

It's unfortunate to see, while looking at me
In the mirror as I slow count the days
The colors of life that I cut like a knife
The dances and games others play
There's one true reminder that I'm not to unwind here
My favorite color still stays
That beautiful shade and the purest of passions
For no matter the age it won't go out of fashion
That deep crimson tone, that I'll wear all alone
A reminder in so many ways
That the color of love deserves praise

Where does this ocean go

I never know why I do what I do
I don't usually know yet as the day passes through
It seems to me maybe I'm not really glued
To a notion that others desire
I know that it's something
With all of the nothings
The things I'd be wanting
Perhaps if I knew I'd set fire
I never will quit this
A thing I don't get, this
Motion of action I miss
For the feet 'neath my legs never tire
I know that I should know
A thing that will not go
A dream that did not show
Setting course for the funeral pyre
For something replaced this
An unwanted face this
Something I don't miss
A thought that I do wish retired

What the hell

One day I did buy a backpack
I bought it from sitting on the rack
I didn't know then what adventures could end
But I knew that I wanted a backpack
I sit and I stare at this backpack
I wonder what ways I could stack that
I know it can never contend with the other I mend
But it's still a pretty nice little backpack

You Are Now

All I know is I don't know nothing
All the nothing I don't know
All I know is that I want just one thing
Nothing that anyone shows
Avoiding the color of angels
The pictures of memories past
I'm trying to cover the angles
But I wish that I'd only been asked
Some time that the moments behind me
The ones that we all should have known
As the evil mind-drumming can find me
That cover that I build then blown

Oh Happy Days

I wonder how... in the end with a bow
All I could want is a friend
Could I see in my teens, how the life could have been
Did I just never get what was meant
As I ponder this things and the stereo sings
I appreciate all life's intent
I wish for the beauty, this love and the duty
Yet for now I could never be spent
I know I could learn it, the lottery, earn it
But I truly don't know much about friends
Without a beginning how could I know an end

That Spark Inside

I don't want to know any more what has come
Once a moment has passed that moment is done
There is no more learning and no way to know
What you think is a gift is just letting me go
To want for what's needed but never was had
For the life I was leading was broken and sad
I love all the world with it's magical tales
The stories of hearts and the ones of betrayal
Defiantly wasted is each passing day
While wanting for something and still parting ways
I love you all dearly as clearly you too
Love my life and allowed me to glimpse it anew
For now I will still be a broken reminder
Of days we once had and the smiles much kinder
I too now must fight for the future to glow
I'll hold up my head and I'll smile to show
And so I will leave you with this simple tell
You have all my love so please rest and dream well

The Most Respected

A passion that's mine doesn't mean I won't find
What the world will hold me to it's standard
I know that I'll play as soon I shall stay
And I'll carefully listen to cander
It's not to be gone but to be wished upon
A beginning perhaps or a hold note
And in all of this past I shall find what is asked
Though for now in this place I shall downvote
I've finally found a small compromise
A thing that I actually wanted
A bit of a dream in my earliest years
And that's now where I'll begin to be haunted

This Time Each Year

Evidence is evident and spacing apart
Face to face with memories I don't think I have
Little to do with what we know and peace in our hearts
Trying to find a purpose and know who I am
I'm not sure I know what to say about life
As what I have been through wasn't what to expect
I want to make changes to past thoughts derailing
But these chances are few and I'm so good at failing
I want and I wish for what I know I needed
There isn't a chance that I'd lay down defeated
Barely am I yet I wouldn't let go
For all of the chances I'm willing to show
I'd welcome this one little thing
Unbelievable dreams you'd not know
Accepting how close I am to what I was
I'd willingly place myself upon that bus