Flashback Car Crash

67 combines, dreams that hope never dies
The trinity apart, add 96 to 3, the 99 are who we are
Afraid of only one, hope for none, is that the one
A devil in us all, darkening the sun
I do not recall a name, questions and curiosity
Who was this, terror in my dreams to me, still untouched
A question before I chose, disaster shaken too much
For God's hand to stay, unswayed as he watched
Perhaps as the memory crept through me, did unfold
No fish from the sea, black and white, no dance
No chance, I wish not to be, please, hear my plea
I'll bargain my soul, no more purchases made
No life to be bought, nothing new, if you only knew
God grant me the serenity to forgive the ones who live
I see the numbers unfold, able to forgive
42, the answer to our universe, life, everything
Many know the creations of a man happy to sing
Be sure to be what you love and hold above
All those you see in the dark, unable to find love
Become it, praise it, to the skies raise it
Stay believing through its leaving
Pray that our destiny never betrays it

Joy

One was over many more, a knock on the door
Is it worth it when this ends, don't pretend
Powering through whether disliked or feared
To reach a dream as yet shown, still unknown
There's not much pursuasion to hold it all dear
For a seed that has yet to be sewn
With time I should learn that a life can be earned
All things can be managed and tolerance learned
Til then is the need for a moment of pause
All friendship and guidance, defined without claws
I must relearn the steps, the ones that have gone
The ghosts of connections once relied upon
As though I'm reborn, brought forth in due time
These are still only wishes recorded in rhyme
A decade of nothing, a decade has passed
A few more years followed, with nothing once asked
Existing in solitude, divided from all
Avoiding the earth, never hearing His call
I've since found my place in an ocean of love
Heaven has blessed me with joy from above