Feelings Dec 15, 2025
Dec. 15th, 2025 10:36 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
seeyatI wake this morning identifying feelings of alienation, isolation, inadequacy, insecurity, submissiveness, powerlessness, loneliness, boredom, openness, hopefulness, sensitivity, optimism, a bit inquisitive and anxious.
I want to internalize these words and naturalize them in my conversational consciousness… with every feeling is an indicator. These things are analytically adapted from tension and physical pressure in my head. I woke up to what felt like a spike of electricity shocking my nerves and that’s somewhat fresh.
I’d interpret that as my nervous system not metabolizing feelings while I’m in this townhouse and not connecting much with people I trust.
I want to internalize these words and naturalize them in my conversational consciousness… with every feeling is an indicator. These things are analytically adapted from tension and physical pressure in my head. I woke up to what felt like a spike of electricity shocking my nerves and that’s somewhat fresh.
I’d interpret that as my nervous system not metabolizing feelings while I’m in this townhouse and not connecting much with people I trust.
