Misguided Lust (poem)

I often feel the fear of sexuality
Dark recollection
I want nothing from your kind in reality
A late correction

When I feel this way I shiver
Not moving on
This something should never be delivered
Please be gone

I'm never where you expect me to be
Who am I
Would you look me in the eye and see
I'll not try

There will not be a first or second
Should never have been
I will fail by design as reckoned
Could never have seen

What you were told so many ago is untrue
Perhaps misjudged
Unfathomed depths of confusion I feel within you
This hasn't budged

I love your hearts with all of mine
Because they're there
My character mistaken with it's time
So unfair

Perhaps my looks have told you things
I'm not a player
Or word of mouth what gave you thoughts
Upon a prayer

I've not much life within me in that way
Experience
Nor do I want it as my past
Delirious

None Forsaken, All Mistaken (Poem)

Cancel all your active orders
Get outside and cross some borders
Make your way out of the darkness
Keep away from routes that mark this

Atomic failures, fear that bleeds
This bitten hand I hope that feeds
You'll need to know there is no reason
For warm or cold or dreary season

Stay inside or out if happy
No more lies to doubt entrapped me
All for you to see and hear
There is no reason to be here