Misguided Lust (poem)

[seeyat]

I often feel the fear of sexuality
Dark recollection
I want nothing from your kind in reality
A late correction

When I feel this way I shiver
Not moving on
This something should never be delivered
Please be gone

I'm never where you expect me to be
Who am I
Would you look me in the eye and see
I'll not try

There will not be a first or second
Should never have been
I will fail by design as reckoned
Could never have seen

What you were told so many ago is untrue
Perhaps misjudged
Unfathomed depths of confusion I feel within you
This hasn't budged

I love your hearts with all of mine
Because they're there
My character mistaken with it's time
So unfair

Perhaps my looks have told you things
I'm not a player
Or word of mouth what gave you thoughts
Upon a prayer

I've not much life within me in that way
Experience
Nor do I want it as my past
Delirious