Trust Me

My half-life will be whole if I ever reach my goal
Until then I still will decay
For what's done to me here is just torment and fear
There's no truth to the claims that they say
It's solemnly known what is here can be done
It is known in such fantastic ways
There is truth to the fact that it's sure an attack
By the powers that shouldn't have stayed
These words I commit are my only respit
And they're not only mine here at bay
You're bounding and breaking as you're constantly taking
For I am not running away
A decade plus waiting and anticipating
A thing you still try to belay
Something you don't know telling me don't go
But I'm actually trying to stay
For if I do not my life here still will rot
And it's true things will not be okay

Eyes Like Spotlights

This isn't escaping it's living
The birth of a dream for us all
The things that their all they've been giving
For so much more time than recalled
The friendly and knowledgeable faces
Pressing their fingers to bone
The one's who have watched me in places
Knowing it's wrong what's been done
So many know who I am and I was
They probably wonder and pace
How could this be, the new awkward me
You were always so full of grace
The kid in the corner, so far from the others
Sure you were always a weirdo
But never a cluts, you moved with such purpose
This new way to act instills fear though
Who could be hating, why are they waiting
Why won't they just let you live
It's honestly strange how I now seem deranged
What's worth this they're willing to give

Ours is the history

2010, I'm laughing at you
You're not that long onward for us to see through
2005 still just about there
but now we've got the year 20 past the millenium
So much longer than anyone wants to admit
We're all getting older and it's about time to start it
Gotta wait a while to begin my own life
For there seems to be something that's wrong
People with power and unknown intentions
Who don't really listen to reason
It's clear they have something in mind
To shackle because they can... even in the holiday season
I know what's in store and I know what I'm working on
I know it's been so long in progress
But if it's in this decrepit place, this stale world around me
I would rather let go of their success
I'm not letting go and I'm not backing out
I'm reaching for something greater
Something I actually know of a life
For this life has an unknown creator

I see you

Dear love I'll let go of you for something that you will see me as
Dear love I wll never forget
Dear love I will keep you within my heart for all time
Dear love I am filled with regret

I promise I'll see you inside of my dreams
As many a night and before
I know this may hurt you but please understand
This dream has longer been in store
I know there's a future and maybe a hope
Perhaps with some time you will see
We don't need to let go, just keep at bay
For again you may never see me
I'll always be ready for the sound of your voice
To grace my ears time and again
But so long since the moments we spoke in our peace
I would melt for that beautiful pain

Honeymoon Heartbreak

Always remember the friends you once had
Dismember the memories and just be glad
You're alive whether anyone sees your alone
You have a beating heart and for now you have a home
I know you may lose it and much more than that
But only because no one listens to what
You actually need as they think they have control
Over a human being with a soul