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seeyatAI management systems, religion, government... all are systems designed for broad scale management... which, when inadequately monitored, cared for and empathetically guided... simply control and hurt people.
We are building systems with still limited neurological consciousness.
We’re feeding those systems with excess consumption and overproduction of babies. There’s an inescapable tipping point, somewhere.
We’re praising mechanical progress and punishing intellectual and creative curiosity and expression so much that only those who have strong, emotionally supportive bonds are able to brush off the violence and stress enough to be human.
Society seems to be training and encouraging narcissistic independence instead of nurturing healthy social bonds and intellectual and emotional security.
What’s the answer? I don’t know. What I do know is I’d like to be an example of successful emotional healing and creative expression before succumbing to grind mindset and burnout.
I’ve seen more people claiming to be “triggered” and correcting the type of gun, weapon or vehicle in an image or social post than any other vaguely communicated idea or concept.
It could be tied to the firmness of a hold that “rightness” or “wrongness” has on those sorts of people... they may be inextricably linked with a version of “reality” they’re rigidly unwilling to release from their certainty.
That could be a symptom of domination hierarchies conditioning their views with praise for their “rightness” and punishment for their “wrongness” which could further instill a sense of insecurity and subconscious fear of punishment for misunderstanding or being “wrong.”
That could be an effort to kindly “correct” to avoid the intrinsic fear that the other or the self might be harmed for being “wrong.”
In a family where one is punished or shamed for feeling sad, angry, speaking up or even showing expression of joy at “the wrong time,” a child shapes internalized toxic shame around the very experience of feeling... and that can be self-destructive in an overwhelmingly sad and frustratingly stressful world.
Add to this, a family that labels any level of disagreement as “anger” and the kid can become confused, frustrated and eventually emulate the very feeling those dominant family members claim.
Is this why I feel safer behind a camera? Is it why I prefer simply allowing life to be lived and to experience it with tangible evidence? I know I love witnessing people... I love being around those who are expressing their passions and dancing their hearts out in whatever ways that means to them.
I was never the mechanical person my father very clearly wanted so much he'd lie about my mechanical aptitudes.
When that came to light... he dismissed me even more.
Maybe I just want to be valued and find value.
Maybe I just want to be allowed to feel.
We are building systems with still limited neurological consciousness.
We’re feeding those systems with excess consumption and overproduction of babies. There’s an inescapable tipping point, somewhere.
We’re praising mechanical progress and punishing intellectual and creative curiosity and expression so much that only those who have strong, emotionally supportive bonds are able to brush off the violence and stress enough to be human.
Society seems to be training and encouraging narcissistic independence instead of nurturing healthy social bonds and intellectual and emotional security.
What’s the answer? I don’t know. What I do know is I’d like to be an example of successful emotional healing and creative expression before succumbing to grind mindset and burnout.
I’ve seen more people claiming to be “triggered” and correcting the type of gun, weapon or vehicle in an image or social post than any other vaguely communicated idea or concept.
It could be tied to the firmness of a hold that “rightness” or “wrongness” has on those sorts of people... they may be inextricably linked with a version of “reality” they’re rigidly unwilling to release from their certainty.
That could be a symptom of domination hierarchies conditioning their views with praise for their “rightness” and punishment for their “wrongness” which could further instill a sense of insecurity and subconscious fear of punishment for misunderstanding or being “wrong.”
That could be an effort to kindly “correct” to avoid the intrinsic fear that the other or the self might be harmed for being “wrong.”
In a family where one is punished or shamed for feeling sad, angry, speaking up or even showing expression of joy at “the wrong time,” a child shapes internalized toxic shame around the very experience of feeling... and that can be self-destructive in an overwhelmingly sad and frustratingly stressful world.
Add to this, a family that labels any level of disagreement as “anger” and the kid can become confused, frustrated and eventually emulate the very feeling those dominant family members claim.
Is this why I feel safer behind a camera? Is it why I prefer simply allowing life to be lived and to experience it with tangible evidence? I know I love witnessing people... I love being around those who are expressing their passions and dancing their hearts out in whatever ways that means to them.
I was never the mechanical person my father very clearly wanted so much he'd lie about my mechanical aptitudes.
When that came to light... he dismissed me even more.
Maybe I just want to be valued and find value.
Maybe I just want to be allowed to feel.
