Daydreams...
Jul. 18th, 2025 11:46 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
seeyatI daydream about using my family's lake house in hopeful and romantic ways. When our aunt and uncle were living there, they had some nurse friends and first responders visiting. Our uncle's daughter married a cop who kept his pontoon there. My sister's sister in law is a teacher who dropped in once in a while with their kids.
I daydream about having a steady job, owning a reliable and efficient small suv or tow-capable hatchback for our jet skis and maybe the bowrider boat but... I don't really care about the boat. I'm happier at the helm and the skis are easier and more fun to pilot. I daydream about buying a watertight, floating, padded gear container from Pelican Accessories maybe to keep some camera gear strapped to the back of a ski which I'd need to be more careful about driving.
I daydream about having friends in healthcare, teaching and first response fields who deserve rest and relaxation because they get paid squat... so I think about bringing them to our lake house. Would have been pretty nice having my good friend and his brother there when my Uncle was living around there. Uncle has like 45 years of fire chief, assistant fire chief and educator experience and my buddy's brother is a firefighter. He and his family have earned a beautiful place to relax.
I daydream about having wholesome musicians at the house... I spent some time at a nondenominational church near dad's place, trying to connect with the musicians because I wanted to propose the idea for dad to turn one of the bedrooms... the one with a sliding door leading to a covered porch, into an extension music room and maybe office or spare bedroom (we already have 3 with king beds, two of those with double kids bunks) where we keep instruments and such to bring out around the fire pit or a proper stage under the covered porch.
I fantasize about chatting with people there about what we can do for others regarding food security, poverty, access to safe spaces and clean water... my cousin, my godfather's son was supervisor to a local township for 17 years and in that time, he addressed lots of issues around property value, senior support, parks... but I don't know what he addressed regarding homelessness and unhoused individuals. Our aunt also has a relative in local politics so I really wish we'd done this before they moved to Florida.
Now, I just have this reserved humming daydream of seeing my brother-cousin being his obnoxiously friendly self again. He was recently severely injured in a car accident and I haven't been able to see him as I don't currently have a car.
...as far as practicality, I daydream about working for my brother, installing windows, doors and making the required mechanical assessments and adjustments to accommodate new installations. I once saw him and his dad use only a 2x4 to hold up the entire overhang section of our lake house when they knocked out the metal door and adjacent support to replace it with a sliding door. It was wild. I'd have never thought to do that or risked it... that's what decades of experience and practical understanding does.
I daydream about having a collection of recording gear for audio, video and photography including multiple action cams for various recording angles, outfitted gimbals, multiple camera bodies along with lenses and a drone or two... maybe a fully controlled drone and a tracking-follow drone to cover friends and family doin things; mountain biking, longboarding, racing cars around tracks, rally racing, jet skis on the water...
I daydream about electric cars, boats and necessarily efficient technology. I daydream about renewable energy. I daydream about my father treating me like his son even though he's a mechanical man who will throw fuel at anything as long as it goes fast and I'm more of a stability technology, efficiency technology and safety tech kind of person who still likes when things go fast.
I daydream about being with a sexually satisfying partner who shares my passions and dreams. Besides, I'll probably need to find someone who's equally into media tech just for the chance at affording the stuff and using it practically.
Thing is, I would sacrifice all that dumb boat stuff in a heartbeat because I care more about art and expression and I always have. Look at all my poetry and my early photo and photoshop work and you'll see one theme... human expression, feelings and life. I daydream about joining the 501st Legion and having a set of costumes to wear with them for their volunteer endeavors.
I daydream about having cosplay to wear with my brother in law when he wears his... he's invested around 25 grand in cosplay commissions and wears them all to conventions. He's a huge Star Wars fan with a giant fan cave, theatre and arcade area in his basement. I daydream about doing those things with my sister's kids and all their friends to bring them joy and laughter. I daydream about seeing people dressing up as their favorite characters and becoming them only if for a moment of life.
I daydream about life, mostly... a life I might have if I could yank myself away from a twatwaffle society of determined jackals who praise destruction over love.
I daydream about having a steady job, owning a reliable and efficient small suv or tow-capable hatchback for our jet skis and maybe the bowrider boat but... I don't really care about the boat. I'm happier at the helm and the skis are easier and more fun to pilot. I daydream about buying a watertight, floating, padded gear container from Pelican Accessories maybe to keep some camera gear strapped to the back of a ski which I'd need to be more careful about driving.
I daydream about having friends in healthcare, teaching and first response fields who deserve rest and relaxation because they get paid squat... so I think about bringing them to our lake house. Would have been pretty nice having my good friend and his brother there when my Uncle was living around there. Uncle has like 45 years of fire chief, assistant fire chief and educator experience and my buddy's brother is a firefighter. He and his family have earned a beautiful place to relax.
I daydream about having wholesome musicians at the house... I spent some time at a nondenominational church near dad's place, trying to connect with the musicians because I wanted to propose the idea for dad to turn one of the bedrooms... the one with a sliding door leading to a covered porch, into an extension music room and maybe office or spare bedroom (we already have 3 with king beds, two of those with double kids bunks) where we keep instruments and such to bring out around the fire pit or a proper stage under the covered porch.
I fantasize about chatting with people there about what we can do for others regarding food security, poverty, access to safe spaces and clean water... my cousin, my godfather's son was supervisor to a local township for 17 years and in that time, he addressed lots of issues around property value, senior support, parks... but I don't know what he addressed regarding homelessness and unhoused individuals. Our aunt also has a relative in local politics so I really wish we'd done this before they moved to Florida.
Now, I just have this reserved humming daydream of seeing my brother-cousin being his obnoxiously friendly self again. He was recently severely injured in a car accident and I haven't been able to see him as I don't currently have a car.
...as far as practicality, I daydream about working for my brother, installing windows, doors and making the required mechanical assessments and adjustments to accommodate new installations. I once saw him and his dad use only a 2x4 to hold up the entire overhang section of our lake house when they knocked out the metal door and adjacent support to replace it with a sliding door. It was wild. I'd have never thought to do that or risked it... that's what decades of experience and practical understanding does.
I daydream about having a collection of recording gear for audio, video and photography including multiple action cams for various recording angles, outfitted gimbals, multiple camera bodies along with lenses and a drone or two... maybe a fully controlled drone and a tracking-follow drone to cover friends and family doin things; mountain biking, longboarding, racing cars around tracks, rally racing, jet skis on the water...
I daydream about electric cars, boats and necessarily efficient technology. I daydream about renewable energy. I daydream about my father treating me like his son even though he's a mechanical man who will throw fuel at anything as long as it goes fast and I'm more of a stability technology, efficiency technology and safety tech kind of person who still likes when things go fast.
I daydream about being with a sexually satisfying partner who shares my passions and dreams. Besides, I'll probably need to find someone who's equally into media tech just for the chance at affording the stuff and using it practically.
Thing is, I would sacrifice all that dumb boat stuff in a heartbeat because I care more about art and expression and I always have. Look at all my poetry and my early photo and photoshop work and you'll see one theme... human expression, feelings and life. I daydream about joining the 501st Legion and having a set of costumes to wear with them for their volunteer endeavors.
I daydream about having cosplay to wear with my brother in law when he wears his... he's invested around 25 grand in cosplay commissions and wears them all to conventions. He's a huge Star Wars fan with a giant fan cave, theatre and arcade area in his basement. I daydream about doing those things with my sister's kids and all their friends to bring them joy and laughter. I daydream about seeing people dressing up as their favorite characters and becoming them only if for a moment of life.
I daydream about life, mostly... a life I might have if I could yank myself away from a twatwaffle society of determined jackals who praise destruction over love.
