Quick recent life synopsis...
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seeyatQuick recent life synopsis...
A few years before COVID, I made some essential life shifts, starting before mom passed and evolving after I lost my PT Cruiser. When I had my PT Cruiser, I fully committed to cutting out anything related to smoke, nicotine or THC. It was a social crutch... and the social ties weren't life-affirming for me; the opposite of healing.
For a while before and during COVID, I was making it a point to bike about 30 miles at least every other day or skate 10 miles 3x week. It got me into a structured routine, had me showering and shaving daily, encouraged healthier and more intentional eating habits, encouraged me to start recording helmet cam footage and saving or sharing it, editing video clips and sharing them...
I got myself a vasectomy after confirming my desire to live childfree and got a couple straightedge tattoos following my decision to live a radically sober life following a jarring conversation with pavement from a motorcycle.
I even spent about 2 years daily to weekly dropping in and volunteering at a local church.
It was a really healthy decision that also led to my throwing away things I never found fulfillment with and prioritizing cycling accessories, longboards and backpacks.
I invested about 3 grand in all that, started picking up microphones and interfaces, camera gear and eventually I niched into portrait lighting equipment and adapted my lifelong obsession with colored lights, lasers and environmental modifiers like fog machines and projectors. ...I'd still like to invest in fog machines and projectors but my life has dramatically improved along with my mental and emotional health.
I’ve put about 10 grand into photo gear and lighting equipment plus I bricked a GoPro and beat up a Drift Ghost XL camera... gladly bought a new one.
I wound up studying communication techniques, found niche online social communities, attended ecstatic dances, kink gatherings and learned my interests and boundaries.
It’s been honestly beautiful, enlightening and invigorating. I even lived about a year with a wonderful woman I met at a kink gathering and reconnected with childhood friends.
This has been... a wonderful reminder of what matters to me.
A few years before COVID, I made some essential life shifts, starting before mom passed and evolving after I lost my PT Cruiser. When I had my PT Cruiser, I fully committed to cutting out anything related to smoke, nicotine or THC. It was a social crutch... and the social ties weren't life-affirming for me; the opposite of healing.
For a while before and during COVID, I was making it a point to bike about 30 miles at least every other day or skate 10 miles 3x week. It got me into a structured routine, had me showering and shaving daily, encouraged healthier and more intentional eating habits, encouraged me to start recording helmet cam footage and saving or sharing it, editing video clips and sharing them...
I got myself a vasectomy after confirming my desire to live childfree and got a couple straightedge tattoos following my decision to live a radically sober life following a jarring conversation with pavement from a motorcycle.
I even spent about 2 years daily to weekly dropping in and volunteering at a local church.
It was a really healthy decision that also led to my throwing away things I never found fulfillment with and prioritizing cycling accessories, longboards and backpacks.
I invested about 3 grand in all that, started picking up microphones and interfaces, camera gear and eventually I niched into portrait lighting equipment and adapted my lifelong obsession with colored lights, lasers and environmental modifiers like fog machines and projectors. ...I'd still like to invest in fog machines and projectors but my life has dramatically improved along with my mental and emotional health.
I’ve put about 10 grand into photo gear and lighting equipment plus I bricked a GoPro and beat up a Drift Ghost XL camera... gladly bought a new one.
I wound up studying communication techniques, found niche online social communities, attended ecstatic dances, kink gatherings and learned my interests and boundaries.
It’s been honestly beautiful, enlightening and invigorating. I even lived about a year with a wonderful woman I met at a kink gathering and reconnected with childhood friends.
This has been... a wonderful reminder of what matters to me.
